mortality

  For some reason people think it is important to remind us teens of our mortality.
            I am one of those people that doesn't need to be reminded.
                  I have spent so many years distracting myself from the fact, telling myself to live and not fear.
             I am sorry, I am sorry... I shook in fear last night, I shook so hard.  I cried and cried, and my mom held me.  I was so, so scared.  I know I am mortal, please, don't tell me again.  I am quite aware of my state.

That is not my struggle, my struggle is worrying about today and not the future.

I remind myself constantly of the Bible verse that states not to worry about the future, to simply worry about today because today has enough troubles of its own.

Please forgive me if I close up when you try to talk about death.

I've spent so many years trying to deal with the thought of it.

Live for today.

Please.