learning: 1 (persevere!)

Hello everyone!

     So I have officially survived two (2!) days of school.  My two days were rather tiresome, and I must admit that I was not happy with them, but I am proud that I made the most of them both.

To keep optimistic attitudes about school (*coughyeahrightcough*) I decided to do a 'things I've learned' post.  I thought about it and it sounded like a good idea.  

#1~ I am being humbled.

Okay, let me admit, one of those things that I worked on this summer was gaining self confidence, which took some time and effort but I am slowly learning how to be comfortable in my skin.  But as soon as I came back to school I was surrounded by all these other girls, and I felt that nagging at the back of my head reminding me to mind where I stood on the social status chart. 

This year I don't think I am going to allow myself to consider a social status chart, but when I looked around I was humbled by the thought of God creating all of us differently.  I no longer am focused on how I look and how amazing it is that God created me, but how amazing it is that he created everyone so different.  Just think about it, it is astounding.

#2~ Love is the key.

God is love, the Bible defines him as that.  The number one rule is to love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and strength and the second to that is to love your neighbor as much as yourself.  Ever wonder why most music is about love?  Yeah, it is because the whole world turns around the word, God is love, therefore, if he made everything he would naturally try to include plenty of it in us. 

I am also saying that I walked into the building feeling nervous, sick even, because of the fact that I am trying to change this year.  What I am slowly learning is that if you become approachable and say hello to them without them even noticing you you become a loving person, you CARE.  I am an invisible person, and when someone comes up to me and says hello specifically to me I am honored, and even more so if they ask me how I am and attend to my answer.  

People, LOVE, it opens so many doors.

#3~ Some people are going to be mean

I know this isn't a whole 'thankful to have this' type of note, but I believe that it is important to add.

I subconsciously thought that when I changed my look and became friendlier that everyone would want to talk to me.  I was sadly mistaken, the people who treated me disgracefully last year or who don't know I exist still don't care.  To some I am this disease, and let me tell you, I've cried far too many times about it to not be true.

Even with some new wardrobe items and make up I am treated not well, partly because I am not the most attractive or stand out type of person, and partly because of my behavior (my introverted side is getting to me again).  The 'populars' still treat me as if I am a figment of my own imagination, if I had any doubts that I am worthless in their society they have been cleared.  The other night  felt like such a loser about the whole thing, but time and time again my dad tells me that some people are just going to be mean.  I still haven't grasped the whole concept because somewhere in my innocent head I believe that their hearts aren't made out of stone.  We'll see...

#4~ Get back up

I cannot promise that us people who are 'figments of our own imaginations' will ever be the next Taylor Swift or such, and I can't promise that you'll even be more successful, but I believe in a God who will lead you to being content no matter the circumstances.

Thus, I say get back up.  One of my favorite Bible verses is Romans 5:1-5:

 "Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ,2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."

I am still working on getting back up.  I am an invisible girl, but I am learning not to let their lack of love get to me.  I have determined that I will persevere, and I encourage (demand!) that you do so also.  

My list for the week.  I cannot say that this week has been the best, as I basically lost one of my best friends (c'mon, I think most of us have gone through losing a really good friend) so I am in the recovering stage.  

But, I shall persevere. ;) 

I do so hope that you'd join me.